Wednesday, July 20, 2005

....LoNG TiMe No BLoG....

I know I haven't been updating for a while. Well, I've been busy. I know it's a VERY lame excuse... Hehe...Anyways the month of June as I've mentioned before was THE WEDDING month... I was busy on all 4 of the weekends... Starting with Shima's and ending with Kak Dinna's. I had a lot of fun but I missed my tuition lessons quite a bit and so I have to make up for them in July. I will try toupload the many many pics that I have very soon.

Last Friday, I went out with Nora after work. We went to have the chocolate banana cake from Secret Recipe at Suntec. I was so craving for it after trying it once at Kak Dinna's wedding. It was delicious lah... After Suntec, we went to Bugis for dinner. Afterwhich we were supposed to go to Al-Majlis. Nora suggested that we stopped over at Parkview Square. It was a great move. The scenery around the building is nice. We talked and talked there. I let her listen to the old malay jiwa2 songs that I have in my phone. It turned out that she also listened to them when she was younger. We were singing the songs like nobody's business. We moved off from there at around 11 plus and went to Al-Majlis at which we stayed till about 1 plus.

The next day, I went to another wedding. It was held in Tanjung Pinang. It was my uncle's; his second marriage. He was left with his 3 sons somewhere early this year. That woman left them. We all feel that he needed someone to help him in bringing up his young children. We know that it's too early for him to get a new wife but it's for the best. It's easy for one to say but not to help. So Kak Ida introduced him to her neighbour. She's not too young and was never married. The whole process didn't take long and everything was prepared. So they got married and the wedding went well. While I was there, I got to meet the little kids Thahirah was talking about. I got a bit emotional looking at them especially the eldest. She looks so innocent. Luckily, we all stayed there for less than a day or I might be so emotionally involved.

I have been feeling kinda lonely maybe cos Kak Dinna is now married. I dunno why I'm feeling this when I still have other wonderful people around me. She still sms me and email me but I guess it's different now. Hmmm, I think I sound kinda lesbianish kan... Whatever lah...

Alritey, I gtg. Will update soon.

PS: Aysha, U look fabulous in the wedding pics.

Posted by Soalihah at 11:51 AM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

....THeY aRe BaCK....

I juz got back from lunch. I had wholemeal bread with chicken curry. I brought the food from home. The food in the canteen is getting rather boring. I also have to start saving. I've been spending quite a lot. Shit seh. Anyways, Buyon cooked the curry. It's soooo sedap lah. She's so getting to Mak's standard in cooking. I'm jealous of her but that doesn't mean I'm gonna start cooking anytime soon. Lazy lah. I'll learn when I know I'm getting married. Haha....

In the last entry, I forgot to mention my dream on Sunday nite. I dreamt of AB. In the dream, his mum called to inform me that he's sick. I went over to his place. i dunno what happened but the last scene was I made him milk in a milk bottle. He was in bed. His room was soo nice. But it's funny that he's drinking the milk from a milk bottle. What could be the meaning of the dream. Weird kan.... I dunno why I dreamt of him. I haven't been thinking of him at all tau. When i think of him, I dun get to dream of him but when I dun, I dream of him. Whatever lah...

So I slept at Buyon's place on Monday. After class, I went straight to her place. Already got her maid to bring my things there. Before I reached there, Buyon smsed me saying that she and the rest would be sleeping as they were all tired after the journey back from Melaka. Kak Nor, her maid would be waiting for me as I had no keys. I was hoping Nasrul, my nephew would wait for me but I understood that he must be tired. I reached her place around 2200hrs. I was about to take off my tudung when I felt a hug at my waist. It was Nasrul. He actually waited for me and was so excited that I was gonna sleep over. I washed up and prayed and the next thing I know, Buyon and Abg Osman also woke up. They felt bad for wanting to sleep early when I rarely sleep over. So in the end, we chatted till about midnight before all of us decided to sleep.

They were all supposed to come back early yesterday but in the end they reached SG late. I had nothing on yesterday and wanted to watch Madagascar but I thought I shouldn't since I wasn't sure what time they would be arriving. After work, I went over again to Buyon's. Sat there for a while before Abg Osman sent me home. He later went to fetch them at Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal. They bought a lot of things. Mostly food. Thahirah told me bout the kids. She said they looked so pityful. She also said the eldest was sooo attached to her that she cried when they were all leaving. The twins are good-looking as what everyone said. Mak couldn't take it when she looked at them. How I wish I could help but it's never-ending. The wedding will be in July. I dunno how I'm gonna take it when I face the little kids. Sometimes I wish I didn't know. Sigh!

Anyways, I had my last lesson with him on Monday before his leave. I managed to chat a bit with him. He mentioned that he'll be leaving this morning. He'll be gone for 10 days. Why the hell am I so affected? I also dunno lah. Whatever lah. The situation at work today is very busy. There are 7 people down with MC, 1 on urgent leave, 3 on annual leave and 1 on reservist. That's like 20% of the people here absent. Calls have been coming in non-stop and our service level is crappy. I'm sure it's gonna be worse later this afternoon. But well, looking on the bright side, it's already mid-week.

I'll be having tuition later. I dunno why I've been feeling so tired. I think it's because I've not been having enuff sleep. Been sleeping late. I was sooo reluctant to wake up this morning especially since it was raining. Thank god, the rain stopped so I didn't have to bring umbrella to work. I sooo need to get myself a foldable umbrella. If I'm not wrong, I used to have one but I dunno where I have placed it now. I must also remember to bring home the 2 big umbrellas under my desk. I keep forgetting seh. Must put reminder already...

Nanti update lagi lah eh....


MiXeD-FeeLiNGs LiHaH

Posted by Soalihah at 1:09 PM

Monday, June 06, 2005

....THiNGs aRe BeTTeR NoW....

Last Friday, I went for both my yoga and also to Kak Eton's. I finished work at 1800hrs. Rushed down to Pacific Plaza. Had my yoga class at 1900hrs. After class around 2030hrs, I took a cab down to Kak Eton's place. Was there for a while then went to Yani's parents' house which is in the same block as Kak Eton's. Chilled there for a while and went home about 2300hrs.

As soon as I was home, had some discussion with Bai and Mak. Wasn't too happy. Was supposed to meet with Yani and Nora. They called a few times while I was talking to Bai but couldn't call back cos on that day both of them didn't have their handphones with them. Shitty. Wished I had answer their calls and I would so have been able to follow them to the chalet and meet F. Like Yani said, that was one of the rare times that I would get to see him and I didn't go. Some other time perhaps....

I slept late on Friday nite. Talked to Hykel till about 0200hrs plus. Slept at 0300hrs and woke up at 0800hrs on Saturday. Shima's nikaah was at 1000hrs. I reached her place around 0900hrs plus. She looked so sweet in her pinkish blue kebaya. I stayed there till abt 1100hrs and headed home for tuition. After tuition, I went for my bollywood dance class at True Yoga. I planned to go out with Kak Dinna and Sheeqah but they both had to cancel on me. Was soooo upset but thank god for Fitri. We in Bugis. Had our dinner at Al-Majlis. Had sheesha to myself. Khair later joined us with a friend of his at around 2100hrs. We chilled till 1030hrs and we left for home.

I slept early on Saturday after the long day. Woke up early on Sunday morning and went for my hatha yoga class at 0945hrs. It was one of the most satisfying class. I managed to do most of the postures. I can see the improvement in me. Hopefully I'll get better and better. After class, I rushed home, got ready and went for 2 weddings with my family. One of them is Shima's. Mak and Thahirah also commented how good she looked. Very demure I should say. I'm soooo happy for her that finally she's married to the love of her life. Especially after going thru soooo much. Shima, you are one of those whom I really treasure and I'm very happy that you have reached the next stage of your life. Wishing you continuous happiness and may you be blessed with children soon. Thanx for making me a part of your joyous moment.

It's already Monday. Mak, Abah, Thahirah and Radhiah have all gone to Tanjung Pinang with a few others to settle sum things. I'll be sleeping at Buyon's place. It's very troublesome to be sleeping elsewhere on a working day but what to do, I'm not brave enuff to sleep on my own. Haha... Now it's really hitting me that he is going on leave for real. I dunno why but I'm very much affected. I won't be seeing him for 10 days. Tonite's lesson will be my last one before he starts his leave. For all I know, he's going back to his country to see his wife and kids. What's new..... I hope I'll be enjoying my other lessons so that I won't think much bout him. Wish me luck yah....

Dahlah, I've blabbered a whole compo. Will be back again to update.

SaD LiHaH

Posted by Soalihah at 10:52 AM

Friday, June 03, 2005

....It'S BeeN HeLLiSH....

Things've been shitty for me since 3 days ago. Going thru another difficult time. I really don't understand how THEY can be soooo selfish and put US in this state. And I am very disappointed in YOU for whatever you said bout me. I think deep in you, you are very much aware that I'm not that sort. I dun think I've ever given you any major problem. But the things you said on Wednesday nite will keep ringing in my ears. You can blame it on your anger but I can also blame it on my sensitivity. As my elder, I know I'm not supposed to be rude to you but too bad I can't help it and I won't be apologizing anytime soon. The hurt is still deep in me.... Very deep indeed.....

My mind has been in this mess since Tuesday nite. I was on leave on Wednesday. Amidst all the shittiness I'm in, I had to take my mind off the problems and went to get the materials for the clothes I'm wearing during the weddings. I went to Arab St with Mak and Mami Jenab. I bought 2 set of materials. One for my lehenga to be worn during Fahimah's wedding and one for my salwar kameez to be worn during Kak Dinna's nikaah. I love both of them. The lehenga will be all purplish while the salwar kameez will be all pinkish. We went to Ani tailor last nite after my yoga class to sent the materials. I really hope they will all turn out nice. Very excited bout them.
I slept at Bai's place on Wednesday nite. When I was about to sleep, I received an sms from an unfamiliar number. I called the person up and it was Hykel, Roze's and Ain's friend. He is now in contact with Thahirah. He got my number from her. We talked for 3 hours lah. Funny lah that boy. We really had so much to talk for the conversation to last 3 hours.

As mentioned, I went for my class last nite. It really managed to relax my mind, body and soul. I left work early. Wanted to catch the hatha yoga class at 1815hrs. It was his class. Without any prior notice, they happily changed it to yoga therapy held by another instructor. I was sooo angry but couldn't do much. So I went for yoga combat at 1900hrs instead. While waiting for my class, I saw him. He looked very upset and angry. But him being him still put on a smile when he passed me. He sat beside me before leaving and confided a bit. I really hope he'll feel much better. On a brighter note, I'll be going for his class at 1900hrs later this evening.

Btw, Mak informed me that we are invited to a wedding this 11th. Surprise Surprise.... It's none other than Aysha's wedding but held by Farez's side. So Aysha and Hajira, insyaAllah I'll see you both at the wedding.

I'm currently at work. Covering recep duties as one of the receptionist is on MC. So hungry and sleepy. I'm still deciding if I should go Kak Eton's daughter's birthday thingy tonite. Nora and Yani are going. I wanna go but that means I'll have to skip my class at nite. That also means that I won't see him. I shall decide later. The ultimatum will be tonite. I don't want to be around to witness it. Alritey, I'll blog again soon.

Posted by Soalihah at 10:45 AM

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

....My TaGBoaRD iS uP....

I haven't been updating cos I hate going to my blog when my tagboard was being a bitch. Thanx Hajira for introducing me to myshoutbox.com. I promised myself that I'll start updating once it's up so here I am. I have been rather busy eventho I had no tuition for 2 weeks. Been busy going for my yoga lessons. Yes, I juz took it up. It's at True Yoga @ Pacific Plaza. I'm enjoying it a lot. There's also bellydancing and bollywood dancing classes. I have tried nearly all of their lessons and they are really good. The True Yoga people are really superb in doing up their place. The ambience is great. The staff is also very friendly and approachable. Each member has a consultant to cater to her needs. It's not expensive if u intend to go regularly. I am really recommending u all to try. If u need to go for free trial, do tag me. I can bring as many people for free trials.

Enuff bout True Yoga. I don't wanna sound like I'm promoting them too much. Anyways, I managed to get myself a new phone late last month. I bought Nokia 3230. Nokia can be a pain but it's alrite i'm loving my phone more each day. It has all the things I need in a phone. I loikeeeee....

Tomorrow is already the start of June. This year's June is really a month of weddings for me. The first week of June is my good friend, Shima's wedding. The third week of June is a friend's wedding. The last week of June is my cousin, Fahimah's wedding. She is my maternal cousin. As a matter of fact, I'm very much closer to my maternal cousins but that doesn't mean I ignore my paternal cousins. My paternal cousins are all much younger. Can't bond much. I really love each and every one of my relatives and that includes my aunties and uncles. I believe they love me as much. You all must be thinking how thick-skinned can I be but I really do have that bit of confident in them. Back to Fahimah. She and I are of the same age. We went to the same kindergarten, same primary school and also secondary school. We can be said to be quite close but drifted a bit after the 3rd year in TKSS. Nevertheless, I'm very excited about her getting married. I'm happy to be able to help her in any way I can. I'm trying to get our close friends' contacts so that they can be invited. I'm sure she'll be looking good on her big day.

Another wedding I'm really looking forward to is a childhood friend's. She can also be a sister to me. I have known her since I was 5. Her name is Dinna. Kak Dinna and I had gone thru a lot. We went thru numerous misunderstandings but we become closer and closer after each one. He nikaah is on the last day of June and her wedding reception will be on the 2nd of July. I'm sure she's gonna be another beautiful bride. I wish all the brides-to be and grooms-to-be all the best and may your marriages last. This one's for you too Aysha. Don't worry much.

Last but not least. I wanna thank all who actually bother to visit my blog even after continous lack of updates. I'll try my best to update regularly all....
Will blog soon....


HaPPy LiHaH

Posted by Soalihah at 5:44 PM

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

....NeeD a NeW PHoNe...

First and foremost, I really need help on my tag-board. Kind souls out there, anyone able to help me fix it? Pls email me. I'm kinda desperate.

Anyways, last Friday nite, Kak Dinna, her sister, Aisha, my sister Thahirah and myself went to Al-Majlis. She drove us there. Saw Kirah, Fadzli, Liza and her partner. We saw an empty table but there were 2 cockroaches near it. We decided to wait for a while and settled for the table that Kirah and the rest were at. We thought we were safe but to our horror there were more cockroaches around. Some were even flying. It was so traumatising for me especially. We were all jumping around and the staff there had to move our tables around and kill the cockroaches for us. But it wasn't our fault, we were really terrified seh. Finally, all's ok and we sat down enjoying our normal dosage of sheesha, shawarmas and mint tea.

Next, came the funniest thing for the nite. A yellow lamborghini drove into Arab Street. The young looking driver wanted to park his precious car in a lot rite in front of our table. He was trying LOTSA times but still not able to park. This has made a lot of people laugh at him. 2 of the staff there tried to help him by looking out for him but STILL he's not able to park. The climax was when he decided to move to another lot and not realising another car behind him, he reversed and his car gave that car a peck. This of cos caused more noise amongst the people there. While the guy driving the lamborghini tried to park in another lot, he bumped into another car. It was sooo funny. The guy in the end after parking sat beside us with his friends. Lesson to learn: Please make sure you are very good in driving before thinking of driving any sports car cos you wouldn't wanna be laughed at.

We were there till about 0300hrs before making our way home. I went to work on Saturday all zombie-looking. After work, Yani, Nora and myself made our way to Siti's solemnisation ceremony. It was a very simple and sweet affair. She looked sooo sweet. The groom's friends made us give Siti a speech. Yani did it for us. Nora and myself sooo couldn't it. We all went straight home. I was soo tired that day and slept at 2200hrs. That's like super early for a Saturday nite.

So I woke up early on Sunday for tuition. Had to start the day early cos I had to go for Siti's wedding. Shared a cab with Nora. Took pictures with Siti. She looked sooo gorgeous. She is one girl who rarely puts on make-up. Naturally, she looks different in a positive way on her wedding day. Her beau looked good too. I wish them all the best in their next step in life.

I spent the last few hours of my weekend resting at home. i also managed to catch Beauty Shop. Wanted to watch Be Cool but got no time. i slept early on Sunday too. Nothing much happened yesterday except that I was on half-day. Went to Mami Milah's palce with Mak and Abang Ayeng, my eldest cousin. He's leaving for London this Sunday. Going there for work. Mami Milah's getting rather busy with the preparations for Fahimah's wedding this June.

Fahimah is another cousin of mine. We were born in the same year and month but different days. We grew up together. We went to the same kindergarten, same primary school and also the same secondary school. We drifted a bit while in secondary school. We have different group of friends. Since then, we rarely keep in touch. Nevertheless, I'm very excited for her. I really hope I can help in any way needed. Hope everything will turn out well.

Talking bout weddings, I have like 4 weddings this June. Can't wait for all of them.
I'll be going home soon. I feel so tired today. And yes, I sooooo need to get myself a new phone when I have the money that is.

TiReD LiHaH

Posted by Soalihah at 5:52 PM

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

....NeW LiHaH NeW TemPLaTe....

I've got myself a new template. Yay!! I soooo love this new one. Hopefully, this will motivate me to blog regularly. Will be back soon....

NeW TeMPLaTe LiHaH

Posted by Soalihah at 3:54 PM

....a NeW Me aFTeR ToDaY....

I've been away for dunno how long. I'm beginning to get REAL bored with this template of mine. I need a new look. It has to go with my new self. I'm so into the idea of improving myself. I wanna be a lot happier than before. I wanna make sure I'm in control of situations. I wanna be less sensitive and emotional. I wanna care for myself more as I care bout others too much. But above all these, I wanna be stronger.

I have learnt a lot in the past 3 years of my life. I can't rely on someone to be always there for me juz because I'm always there for the person. Even if she/he is a good friend. I have to learn than one has to be rather selfish to feel a bit more happier. I also learnt that it is normal for a man to be calling me EVERY single day, asking me out OFTEN and sharing with me NEARLY all of his problems but he only regards me as a friend. Well, he can be having a girlfriend or wife at the same time. It's a BLOODY bonus ya'll. Well, giving myself a good start. I should be looking on the bright side and Boy am I lucky to be having a lot of these men as buddies. But for now, I think I have enuff. Thanx all of u out there who've been regarding me as a good friend.

The best lesson for me will be that I have to treasure my loved ones a WHOLE lot more while they are still around as Allah can take them anytime as HE loves us most. I have heard a lot of people passing away the pass few months. The closest thing to that for me was when my mum was admitted 1 month back due to lungs infection. She was sooo weak and it was painful juz looking at her in that state. She was warded in CGH for a long 11 days and then warded in SGH for another 2 days. I had to be the ELDER sister to my younger ones at home. I had to do a whole lot of house chores on top of work, tuition and travelling back and forth to the hospital. It was the worst 2 weeks of my life. I was mentally, physically and emotionally exhausted. But I'm very grateful to Allah and a lot others who have tried to make things easier for me.

After all that's said and done, I must make it a point to REALLY do it this time. I will be a happier and stronger me. I know Allah has great plans for all of us and I also know that whatever I have gone thru will bring me up another level. For now, I will wait patiently for Allah's plan for my future. I will also start my exercise regime again. I wanna be healthy too. Have I mentioned that already?

Anyways, I wil try to update regularly and if there's any kind soul out there who wanna help me with my template, do tag me. I'll be more than grateful. This is it for now. Till then.........

P/S: To Syed: Thanx for tagging me. I miss you. Hope to see you on MSN.

a SaMe oL BRaND NeW LiHaH

Posted by Soalihah at 1:40 PM